Brian did me a favor and blocked you on Snapchat after that little tirade of yours, so I can’t reply to you directly. But I’ve been meaning to write you your very own blog for a good two years now, so I thought now would be the time, since you’ve provided me with so very […]

I was defending my relationship choices to someone recently and he kinda just virtually shook his head and threw up his hands, ready to back off about it. He had to warn me though that, “a leopard doesnt change its spots.” I maintained the opposite, insisting that they can, and that my particular wildcat already […]

I saw this book a while back In my always endless scrolling About finding the Divine through fucking And the Bible told me once That God could come as anyone Thus, thou shalt fuck even the one who eats by begging So when I found you on the street You know, of course I brought […]

Little known fact, I am a feminist. I’ve been slapped in the face for my views on abortion, I’ve read The Feminine Mystique and the Pivot of Civilization, I even once grew out and groomed my pubic hair. Shut up, it’s funny. I guess people don’t realize sex worker’s rights are women’s right (even when […]

I don’t mean to sound callous and you shouldn’t think that I resort to slapping people by default. My relationship with Brian has been the single most compromising one in my life, and he pushes me past lines I never thought I’d cross. So why do I cross them? Brian is exploitative and manipulative, and […]

When I talk about the pain I’ve caused to men, it can sound like all the bullshit I’ve been through was just karma. So in defense of myself, and in keeping with the first half of part two, I want to point out to the Universe that I’m a good person. Maybe I operate under […]

I’m sitting there, debating whether or not to call my kids on Skype, when I have this image of them saying to one another, “She forgot us again.” Anderson is hardening toward it, he’s come to expect the disappointment, but Avery is so pure and won’t ever stop waiting. Then they’re teenagers. The mental health […]

It’s funny how you can sit there and take everything from me, drain me of everything I’ve got down to my very life force, and then tell me it’s my moral fucking responsibility to keep giving. You, and if not you then someone, many someone’s, have steamrolled over me and nobody gave a single flying […]

I hold to the idea that all truths should be shared and that if you wouldn’t share one, you shouldn’t do it. It’s an easy morality test for all the behaviors you could perform in any given moment. “Can I tell this story later without sounding like an asshole?” It is even more important to […]

*Some names have been changed. I don’t know how the hell it came up, but someone and I were talking about the lists we used to make of all the people that we’d fucked. Doesn’t everyone keep a list? Someone else and I, a little further back, had had been discussing something similar when we […]